you have no idea what it's like being me, born into this world, taught by the streets, raised with neighbor " HOOD " dreams, the life of the dysfunctional family, things aren't what it seems, two caught up in resentments, they can't seem to agree, so they separated and avoided the responsibilities, family secrets, kids forced to hide the truth, you know, about the reals of you and you........... that's mamas boyfriend, you know the man we call uncle, daddy got a girlfriend for life, you know, we called her step mama....... my grandma Mrs. Bland was my source of love and peace. I let her down and missed the goodbye, " WHY " ? because i was hanging in the streets. there she was in the hospital that night waiting for me so i could see, i refused to go with the ride that came for me that night, because i was occupied hustling high on the block being me.
" MY LIFE STORY TOLD IN POETRY, SOMETHING HAPPENED, IT ALL HAD CHANGED ME, A FEELINGS PROTECTOR SO I THOUGHT, GETTING HIGH FOR LIFE WAS MY PRIORITY. "
brother and i was kind of cool, we have different ways about ourselves, he turned me on to a wheat paper roled joint, my first, then off to the Army he went. i went to church, but didn't know God, when services was over it was all about me, being back on the block to the corner i ran, cause love for the streets was where i wanted to be, see. no more secrets, i'm cried and crimed out. i will never forget the things of my past, the life i lived was wrong but real, i wished i would have never tried to live so fast.......
" MY LIFE STORY, TOLD IN POETRY, SOMETHING HAPPENED, IT ALL HAD CHANGED ME, A FEELINGS PROTECTOR SO I THOUGHT, GETTING HIGH FOR LIFE WAS MY PRIORTY. "
it's all good now though, because with age and experiences, rock bottom from the lost, paying the high cost for low living, i now recognize that " GOD ", is the boss. for those that may object my truth being told for the purpose of freeing up my soul, please understand and try and just feel me, because for me to analize my past is the motivational method that will set me free.